indoctrinated.

Times that I feel unstoppable Are cut short when I lose just a day When I'm bed-ridden I must stay hidden For I'm worthless if I don't create Don't want to waste any moonlight Even though I know I should rest But if I have no sight in the middle of the night I know I cannot do my best Try to reverse the condition I've found myself in But there's no instruction to what I'm doing I still think production is where my worth begins Gotta unlearn this obstruction to my happiness Help, I've been indoctrinated What the hell even is relaxation? Help, I've been indoctrinated But so has the rest of the population Sometimes I feel abandoned But that's my ego speaking up Friendships fade, they don't owe me anything Who am I to interrupt? I need a constant output Do I overcompensate? If I stay in bed I get inside of my head And I feel myself deflate Try to reverse the condition I've found myself in But there's no instruction to what I'm doing I still think production is where my worth begins Gotta unlearn this obstruction to my happiness Help, I've been indoctrinated What the hell even is relaxation? Help, I've been indoctrinated But so has the rest of the population I don't have the will To stay perfectly still My chest starts to fill With misplaced guilt Can I satisfy This appetite? Is there a finish line Or will I go until I die? Help, I've been indoctrinated What the hell even is relaxation? Help, I've been indoctrinated But so has the rest of the population