WHERE DO I GO

Where do I go? Where do I turn? When does the fire start to burn? Am I alone? When am I ever gonna learn? I am seeking I'm laying wide awake but I'm dreaming About another life that I wish that I lived instead of this And I'm sorry for leaving But I tried to find a purpose and meaning I guess I never knew what to do, who I hurt and who I'd miss I try to be responsible but all I see is obstacles No Spider Man, but I'm far from home Where do I go? Where do I turn? When does the fire start to burn? Am I alone? When am I ever gonna learn? When do I smile? When do I cry? I love you to much to say goodbye but I gotta go Why do I hurt you all the time? Now I'm older Maybe this should be the time that it's over But even when I'm happy, the thoughts that I have wanna shut me down I wish I wasn't afraid to be different I wish I wasn't afraid of commitment I wish everytime I said that I wasn't depressed, would be a lie I try to be what you need But I cant seem to find my peace One day I hope I could be free Where do I go? Where do I turn? When does the fire start to burn? Am I alone? When am I ever gonna learn? When do I smile? When do I cry? I love you to much to say goodbye but I gotta go Why do I hurt you all the time?