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I would hit you on the FaceTime know the distance far apart Love you with my whole soul still you know you got my heart Time between us like an hourglass it won't last too long Four years since I seen ya and you still got me writing songs Cannot blame you for wanting someone right next you I know it's hard I play it strong I wish that we had saw it through First time that I hugged you felt like real relief I needed you Came home to my momma saw me crying I was missing you I was missing you I knew that you was missing me We had had to scrape that thang up so we could pay the fee Just to see each other didn't make no sense financially Why the f*ck we throw it all away it don't make sense to me Why the f*ck we throw that shit away Feel like cancer when you answer tell me to my face Can't believe we let the love we had just go to waste I don't think nobody else could ever take your place But-what but-what but I'm still tryna get it every single day you know I get fly like I'm playing Quidditch You my twin so we not ever snitching If you get this message call me back these my new digits We had dreams of building a life so that we could raise our kids Better than our parents raised us silly we was just some kids Thought 'bout working nine to five just so I could be next to you 1200 something miles ain't enough to stop me loving you Oh you got a new man what if he stop loving you I know it's petty feel embarrassed that I feel this way I do I'm so used to feeling nonchalant being detached Got me acting out of character you don't text back The pandemic hit and I was tryna make some bread I was almost graduated I could see the cap on head Anyway I started selling weed I knew you'd be ashamed So I started growing distant after that everything changed February 2020 when I lost it all Took a few months to feel the results of everything I lost I was so depressed when the leaves on the trees started to fall Almost took my life I never knew that I could fall this far Tried so hard to reconnect but now you acting strange Every time we talked it felt like you almost forgot my name Begging for forgiveness I was ugly I was so ashamed Made a fool of myself ancestors probably turned in they grave Showed me signs of moving on somethings I can't believe Doing who with what I'm fucked up I'm still searching for relief Living your life to the fullest wish it was involving me Ain't nothing for me to do when he f*ck up you calling me