Silly Painted Thoughts

After all the things ive done seen  Im trying to make sense of these things  Im trynna fight for all these things Im trynna fight for all thats right Ive been fighting all my life  Ive been thinking about it never tried tried  I was always reaching for new heights Ive been thinking about it  Never talked about it  Like when i tried to end my life  I was only worried about it when i was young  Before i bought a gun  Man i was only 21 Yah, i felt the riches and i aint have to spend it  Apprehend it  A hundred grand in my account  Defend it  So close to fentanyl  If i cant send it  Look i just try to be me  For all the things  That seem to be Seize these Cold ivory  The golds glistening  The flows sickening  Im trynna find the point in between the point I just need another joint Good times livin life Trynna get whats mine  Trynna get whats mine  Trynnnnnna getttt whattss miiiinneee Oooo wowwwww  Try to live my life  Try to live my life  Man i swear i feel it  Man i really  really  feel it  Ive been trying to think about it  Ive been trying to see the vision  Ive been thinking bout myself Ive been building myself Gotta change a couple things Aint far from between  F*ck low self esteem  Nothing isnt what it seems  My only prescription is thc So i only see what i see Wvery single day When i need be And i see why  I Might be the  mvp  Of my city I never follow trends  I make tracks For yall to step in  Flashbacks to when i was like 7 When i had my first dreams Of success in this hip hop thing Motivation passed thru sound and tv screen Ever since then i knew what i wanted to be Rapper producer just something in this hip hop thing  20 years passed  Got my debut And feeling good  Dinally figured it out  Next time wont be 20 years