Torchlight

I am holding a torchlight I am holding a torchlight I am holding a torchlight When the sun arose And I was lost in smoke And I felt the broken bones When the wind puts me out Of my consciousness And if the thunder surges Making me split apart even more Than the day before If fire was tainted And I was alone And I felt my soul closing And I felt as if I am opposing The life that has chosen me Then ashes is my destiny Trembling when I step And restlessness giving me up For a bargain to take over me Because I sank so far it would be easy And memory becomes the death That I would have to life with And light would become the breathe That I gave out If I almost fainted And I was buried And I felt everything changing And I felt how painful it became And I said I am the one to blame And if I said everything you said was right And if I did everything you wanted me to by the last shred of light And if I wanted everything that would get me out alright Oh Maybe I could reach my hand out Or Maybe I would die And Become particles that rise In The darkest wind If I felt my wings Fall Off fleeing Would misery Become my answer To the shattered life I am bound to Nightingale follow me around Seeing worlds underground Not knowing what is here To take and give Not knowing what is there left To regret or forgive Saintly light gone in an instant Maybe it was an illusion If fire was tainted, if I almost fainted And I was alone, if I was buried And I felt my soul closing, if I felt as if I am opposing The life that has chosen me, if that life has stolen me Then ashes is my destiny, after the inferno of stressing I am holding a torchlight The cave was a tough time But I got out Not knowing if I am better or worse now I am holding a torchlight The cave was a tough time But I left Not knowing if I am better or worse now I am holding a torchlight The cave was a tough time But I am out Not knowing if I am better or worse now