forget me not

My backbone gave out, these burdens i'm carrying Cried during sex, that shit was embarrassing And I wrap up my legs so my mind won't let loose Not that it works, read my songs and the room Want to be someone so I'll be everyone Try them all on 'til I find the one you loved I hold the smoke too long getting high Just so I'll hear my heart but can't feel my life, hm I'm not going home tonight Or anywhere alone Trespassing in my own right My blood's too hot my skin's too cold The less that I know you The more I seem to be Losing my grip on Everything that feels like me Well, my days aren't my own these days When you still own my better half Collecting carcasses from girls Who'd marry you to get them back I call you one more time And I call it the last thing I need To move on with this life But I'm really just convincing you to miss me I know I shouldn't, but that won't stop me now I'm still not eating, god you should see me How lovely and wilting, I'm still your forget me not Gracelessly pleading you not to forget my love You should've been there, you could've fixed this I don't want to think that you broke me on purpose But you knew who you were and chose not to warn me How can you stand there and tell me you're sorry, hm I'm not going home tonight Or anywhere alone Trespassing in my own right My blood's too hot my skin's too cold The less that I know you The more I seem to be Losing my grip on Everything that feels like me This is getting really fucked up babe I've been choking on air now for weeks straight You're out at our bar watching the game And I watch your story so you'll see my name This is getting really fucked up babe I've been choking with nothing on my plate You're out at our bar watching the game And I watch your story so you'll see my name You get to leave and I get left With all of me that is this mess You get to leave when I'm no use I'd give anything to do that too I'm not going home tonight Or anywhere alone Trespassing in my own right My blood's too hot my skin's too cold And I'm not going home tonight Wherever that is now You've made it all too clear It sure as hell is not myself