full circle

I changed My haircut and my driving playlist When you're not around, turns out I don't care much for Kanye Shocking, I know, we're singing on the way home Now I scream All Too Well into the dash I changed My taste in boys and martinis One made me sick and one got easy Call you and I'm sloppy, tell me you're still thinking of me While I did everything I could to forget your name You pick up on the first ring, I'm prepared to hear the worst thing But this time it won't strip me to the bone Small talk about the weather Grad school's good, I'm never better Enough courtesies, just tell me, are you home? You changed Barely at all if I'm just being honest It takes a hunger and a heart to feel like that night in the car This shit is dangerous but it's art When I feel everything and nothing about you You changed Your tongue but never your demeanour You're taking Spanish lessons, getting past unspoken codes you've torn up It's still lying if you're in Europe Expected nothing less and somehow still you suck My rose glasses shattered, a shade I invented Funny story, you said "sorry," and I don't think you meant it I don't feel alive or butterflies or a need to be sincere You lost that right when I died and and your skin cleared So take another punch, it would kill me not to say this Years to improve and I still had to fake it Guess we're both liars now Well I learned from the best I don't want to explain Come on, what did you expect? My friends ask for the tea, I only drink herbal I left him on read like a full fucking circle I'm mortified now overnight, I did all that for free It was a full-time job I should have used my teeth But I survived you, I'm spiteful since I turned 23 The same age that you were when you met me F*ck