Borderline (BPD)

Its getting really hard Controlling all of my demons This psychosis and my trauma Is a work in progress And there's no antidote To these reckless feelings That control me when my Borderline hits the surface What's the point of it all If i feel like shit, 24/7 and i Don't know how to handle it And I'm not mad at all I just feel like I'm dreaming Sometimes I drift off and picture What it feels like to end it Suicidal daydreams taking over my BPD Its getting really hard Controlling all of my demons This psychosis and my trauma Is a work in progress And there's no antidote To these reckless feelings That control me when my Borderline hits the surface Every little thing Throws me into the deep end There's no oxygen when my Brain is doing the breathing And I could go for days Stuck in this cycle of thinking Repetition, my obsession Is the reason I'm bleeding I push the ones I love away I break their heart so they cant say That they ever got me first Won't be caught dead, getting hurt I ruin things before they're good Just in case they never were I sabotage everything I'm a goddamn hurricane It's getting really hard Controlling all of my demons This psychosis and my trauma Is a work in progress And there's no antidote To these reckless feelings That control me when my Borderline hits the surface Suicidal daydreams Taking over my BPD Suicidal daydreams Taking over my BPD Suicidal daydreams Taking over my BPD