Im So Sorry

Living every day like I'm Stuck in open warzone My thoughts are like grenades Detonating in my head I cant surrender to the enemy Cause there are no other players Its just me When my depression acts up I cant sleep, and when I do I crash And its hard to get up out of bed And everybody complains that I'm Not doing enough its rough, I'm sorry I'm so sorry If I could change the way that I feel I would but i cant hide Hard to fight it, uninvited Every day feels the same I feel caught in a haze Cause I'm just surviving A survival You don't understand I got too much to lose If I told somebody I need somebody If I said I want to die They'd lock me in a padded cage When my depression acts up I cant sleep, and when I do I crash And its hard to get up out of bed And everybody complains that I'm Not doing enough its rough, I'm sorry I'm so sorry If I could change the way that I feel I would but i cant hide Hard to fight it, uninvited Every day feels the same I feel caught in a haze Cause I'm just surviving A survival They tell you that you're fine Until they find you laying on the floor Bleeding, heart not beating Then everyone's surprised And they never saw it coming Thats bullshit Don't tell me that bullshit, yeah When I've finally had enough And I've decided I'm done Cause I'm tired of being strong And they've taken it all I hope you think of me When the world goes dark, yeah I'm so sorry I'm so sorry