Astounded

I watch the time go by I swear I'll Shatter all my teeth Once upon a time I'd bear all Now I'm more discreet I picked the wrong time, yes, I picked the wrong year I picked the wrong disguise I picked the wrong girl, yeah, I didn't have a choice I picked without my eyes How you doin? Sorry I missed everything I could Where you goin? I'm here to help and love just like I should When the time comes Will you be there with me Will you care? I'm astounded Should I keep on tryin? I sit and I stare around you Eyes forever float Thinkin' that I'll make you careless Hoping that I won't You picked the wrong stance, yes, you picked the wrong side You're hoping I will bend You had a chance to love, then you had a second chance To call me your friend How you doin? Sorry I missed everything I could Where you goin? I'm here to help and love just like I should When the time comes Will you be there with me Will you care? I'm astounded Should I keep on tryin? How you doin? Should I give up? Should I stop here? Should I make up, wake up Give up, or live up To what I need to be Should I break down? Should I go numb? Should I be strong, brittle Painless, heartless Just what you thought I'd be Should I forget? Should I deny my pain? Will I find peace, solace Reverence, freedom Spirituality Should I act free Should I be fine behind this mask Will I be closer, farther Nearer, dearer To what I think I need to be I watch the time go by