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And I Been acting up since I was in the lime-light Found comfort in the crowd Tight spaces, people falsely praising Insanely all day I wish that I could be someone with no strings I wish I wouldn't slip into the scene of my own excellence I think that you should go away now I think I've found what makes it rain now in my head I think I've waited for this life to fade away, now Since my decisions really come into play now Life is a battle I've been day job to day dreaming I've seen what my peers see But I guess it's a good thing knowing what I wanna be For the sake of the time taken I try to make it I'm just tryna make my living, god forsaken I work eighty hours and spend my check in a day Don't remind me of my payments, no longer minimum wage so I'll get to it Give me a second, Ive seen my momma four times this year I think that I lost a blessing when I messed up my method of living And ducking in raw stealth But I learned the biggest lesson and nobody could have said it but myself (I think that) (You were my favourite) (Even when I knew it was stupid) (I was in love) (We couldn't even talk) (It was just..) (It was bullshit) You took my heart, stabbed it and threw it into the fire I'd be lying if I said that my soul still resides inside of my body But still I romanticize the feeling I analyze Just trying to reach the prize I'm leaving Can't you see I'm still breathing Hope the change of the season Can manifest in the reason for me to say goodbye I try, time and time again But in the end it's all a misguided lie