I Never Get as Far as I Run

Can I wait for this pain to just fade into some form of strength That one day I will think even if I never asked for it I've been intentionally moving forward but somehow I've been here before (Again and again and again and again) It's getting harder to ignore the same revolving door And I somehow keep on finding myself speeding in reverse Spinning out of control I'm just so tired I never learn, it's true I never get as far as I run War, war, war is in my blood To a fault From every battle I have lost I never get as far as I run So one more test and pill to swallow Another lead to follow That neither kills nor makes me stronger Infinity gets longer Another boulder that I roll to climb Another mountain with no view Drowning myself because I should have known We earn the punishment we choose And yet I'll try again And yet I'll rise again And if I die again I'll come back to life again I have to try again I have to try again I have to try again And try to not be Lost forever Lost To not be lost forever Lost I drank the poison like the remedy A bitter, cordial medicine You've been before and now you understand That you'll be back again I never get as far as I run I never get as far as I run