diagnosed homesickness

Four walls surround my bedroom floor Each one is covered in decor But they've lost the warmth they had before So it looks more like an eyesore I called the doctor on my phone I said there's something heavy in my bones And I feel it most when I think of how I've grown And he told me I'm homesick But I was at home My height is marked on the frame of the door But my memories here feel like folklore Maybe this house was my home when I was four But nothing's the same anymore I called the doctor on my phone I said there's something heavy in my bones And I feel it most when I think of how I've grown And he told me I'm homesick But I was at home And my mind's eye is blind but I can see the scene Of a house in a forest of evergreens With a river to extinguish those made of gasoline That makes it all worth living past fourteen