Understand (feat. Nito)

Days can get a little bit colder when I'm without you Days I ask myself how can I carry on without you They ask me who am I and honestly I don't got no clue At times it feels like pain is just the poison that I pursue I feel like love just isn't for me, I say it ain't real Or I'm attracting fake women that can never be real I want to blame society but... Am I the issue? I hate how much you hurt me and I... Feel like I miss you I don't understand, won't you hold my hand, all I know is pain I don't understand, won't you hold my hand, all I know is pain I just hurt myself because it makes me feel less hurt about the fact that I'm so lonely And nobody else can see it I hate the fact I have the need to care About somebody else significantly more than I can care about myself Do I love myself? Honestly, do I trust myself? Enough to say that I just don't need help, or do I lie to myself? And say I'm fine and I'm just chasing the wealth But I don't want No-one to worry In my photos I'll be smiling I don't understand, won't you hold my hand, all I know is pain I don't understand, won't you hold my hand, all I know is pain The anxiety of losing you is too great It's this clingy side of me that I hate Asking am I enough then realising, this is just fate I can feel my grasp on her loosening like I'm on the beach holding sand Why won't you hold my hand? The fact that I'm losing you makes, me so sad People telling me hey it's not that bad But what they don't realise is she's the one true love I've ever had I feel like I'm chasing the moon, why did this end so soon? I see her slowly disappearing over the horizon To me she's a star like Orion This has gotten out of control, I can't let her go Cause she's a piece of my soul United we stand as the yin and Yang with you being my light And me being the darkness I'll always love you regardless My heart hurts as I write this because I know no onec an ever replace you You're my boost of inspiration, because your heart is pure and gold But in this situation I feel like I'm losing hold The fact that I'm losing you is a harsh reality A casualty, a tragedy, but I can't stand this toxicity You just act casually, like that didn't just damage me But you feel like electricity to my soul, to my heart To me this is very very hard I send you X's and O's, Electronic hugs and kisses Thinking that this virus was keeping us apart But the virus was really my heart Nito