Afterlife

Like I would put my life on it I'd make a wife from it Connect like Wi-Fi on it Like I'm making a lo-fi on it Like I put on my red glasses often Like I paint the sky dark gray Like I break my bones like a contortionist Like I paint my scars and put a smile on it Put a smile on it yeah put a smile on it yeah Can you see me talking 'bout my soul? I'm just bleeding out of my veins, I'm cool Can you say you don't love me After all these years? After you shot me in the foot After you acted like I'm the one who's cruel After you blamed it on me After you ride that dick Can you say anything? Close the blinds, nobody sees it Dig your claws into my heart I really mean it Sneak into my bloodline Blur my eyes, blur my mind Throw smoke in it, disappear from around yeah yeah Nightmares, I woke up in sweats Nightmares, I woke up with cries In the shower, nobody hears it Do you remember when I was mad at you? Actually, I was mad at myself for the shit I got into Now I'm dealing with the hoes and frauds I found a dealer who sells drugs Getting rid of you is the hardest thing That's why I'm trying it once I just wanna quit sometimes I'm just wandering the afterlife What did it look like? What was it made of? I took my plastic shield Tried to hide behind it Now I've made a pillow castle I'm stuck in that time There is no future My eyes are turning red Never be that much Maybe this time I'm really drowning Maybe I've lost the throne this time Maybe I'll drive my car off the road Maybe I'll try to end this life But maybe, just maybe I can see roses regain their color again Maybe birds sing their songs again Maybe people undress their jealousy again Maybe life gains meaning again But maybe, just maybe Maybe one day, but I don't think I can live long enough to see it It's getting worse and worse every day People cursing each other every day That's why I'm moving to the afterlife That's why I'm wondering about the afterlife That's why I'm moving to the afterlife That's why I'm wondering about the afterlife I just wandering somethings will change In the afterlife