Therapy

This is my story so I'll tell it Hear it from the mouth of the horse so I couldn't well it Everyone was sleeping on Adam like he was jelling While they claiming that the music he making could never sell it Had me waiting in the water through a body of lies Trying to trip a niggas footing planning out his demise Everything a nigga said claim I need to revise Said I would never make it anywhere if I was that guy But it was me The one standing in the mirror Me looking back on it now it couldn't be any clearer I focused on other shit rather keeping true to the mirror The voices of other people's the only thing I was hearing I fucked up Used to blow my money in gut trucks Ride around the city with my homies and puff puff Talk about some shit that didn't matter and sure enough I fell on hard times used to think it was dumb luck but no Had me surely falling for sure Me carrying so much weight is what kept my back on the ropes Getting up was a struggle which everybody enjoyed But f*ck it I will get better that's something I truly know I'm striving to be the best at what many have never could While staying true to myself and remembering what is good Opening up the book to my life the way that I should And f*ck it if you don't like I happen to know its good It's real You know the deal I'm shooting back at them haters with everything that I feel I popping off all them tags and opening different seals And savoring just the thought of the quickly approaching meal I got to eat Someone that's successful I got to be The thought of going broke or being a bum is what's haunting me Ain't to many women I remember that wanted me So I'm scared of being alone without a family thats honestly Yeah Its gets harder than that I remember there was a time when I thought I was wack I remember there was a night that I ate out the trash And I always have tend to struggle with knowing I'm black This is the problem with being Adam my shit is all in a pile Waking up in the morning and having trouble to smile Missing the better part of myself I had as a child But if I had it here now that shit would just slow me down Everything has a cost and be certain of who's buying Knowing that the sword that you swinging is two sided Everybody's out for their money it breeds violence So even from your family and friends you got to hide shit Everybody's scheming man what side are they on I know people that I've trusted that would f*ck me tomorrow For a imitation copper colored penny that's all Which is funny what they got it wasn't worth it at all I've been stashing shinny nickels just in case a nigga burn out Scared of what could happen and the way my life could turn out Everybody's working but there's few of us that work out And if it doesn't they will load them things and bring the hurt out Even if it does I'm minus any love I'll never be accepted in this game that's full of thugs I'm praying to a God that's in the heavens up above That he showers me with blessing and I pray that that's enough I don't know But I'm hoping Remember all them days that spent in my room moping Stuck in a depression the hardest to make broken Every doctor that I visit would only proscribe Motrin That ain't what I need Can't you see I bleed The pain of being strong Is what's brought me to my knees I dream of being someone know exactly what it means If you recognize the struggle I bet music's in your genes For real And I'm just saying I'm just saying It's about time I got myself together I'm just saying I'm just saying It's about time I got myself together I'm just saying I'm just saying It's about time I got myself together I'm just saying that It's about time I got myself together Together Together Together Music is my therapy Music is my therapy