Special Man

I know it may not look like it now But I still look to see if you're in the clouds Hearing your voice one more time That's all that I ask for now Proud as you were of me I still feel like I'll never be Half the man I knew you to be I still can't stop shaking Now that you're gone My faith is now breaking you SIck bitter god Loved by most you gave all your Love to us and showed us how Important family meant Right now I couldn't just say goodbye I'd stay strong and wouldn't cry Hold up others like you Held up me I still can't stop shaking Now that you're gone My faith is now breaking you SIck bitter god I have cried every night Since you died I miss when you'd say There is my guy Never got the proper chance To hear you and your final breath All I could do was watch and stare Knowing the whole time You were scared MIssing on the day you died If I was there I would have tried To be a hand to hold Without you hear it gets so cold I've only ever looked up to you I have cried every night Since you died I miss when you'd say There is my guy Hey if you're hearing this I'm no model man But still you'd tell me "You're my special man"