Blue Devils

I often get lost in the wake When the tides come rolling in I lose my way sinking Down into my loneliness I self deprecate to help find A home in all of this But I accidentally lost your heart when I took it for a swim And maybe it was obvious Because I told myself it was That you and I were never going To last till we were old And I think I made it obvious That I was losing hope Convinced myself that happiness Was not my own to hold It feels like a lifetime I've been out adrift at sea So when I came across you I had a hope that you could save me But I hit you with a rogue wave Swept you far from by my side Now I can be alone here And you'll find hope in other tides And maybe it was obvious Because I told myself it was That you and I were never going To last till we were old And I think I made it obvious That I was losing hope Convinced myself that happiness Was not my own to hold I heard you found an island I hope it feels like paradise I'm sure you'll make it work dear Always admired how you'd tried Now I can feel me slipping under The current has its hold on me Don't wanna wear you down no more Please go just leave me be Maybe it was obvious Because I told myself it was That you and I were never going To last till we were old And I think I made it obvious That I was losing hope Convinced myself that happiness Was not my own to hold Am I the one? x4