Never a Me

I loved you more than you can comprehend But honestly I can’t contend with him He’s richer than I’ll ever be and your heart is something I can never keep under lock and key And that’s what bothered me You used me as a place to go to get away from your broken home And I guess I did too We were stepping stone of sorts And hurt each other like hell and showed no remorse It’s taken a long time for me to write you back Cuz I guess I just couldn’t come to terms with how I acted We were going two different ways Then you didn’t look at me the same way The us we were isn’t the us I see today Part of me wishes that you would Part of me wishes that you wouldn’t I know what I wanna say but I know I shouldn’t But I guess you couldn’t either Don’t even know why I even try to conversate I already know that it’s just too late You took all the effort Out of my fingers And turned it to Ashes It was all for you love Pen and to paper Confessing my temper I guess there was never A me and You You never listen to the words I try to say So whats the point of talking anyway See I think it’s stupid me believin' in you Believin' in us Ya see it’s ironic Every time I asked if you were cheating You would always say Don’t you trust me Don’t you love me How could you think of such a thing Gosh I believed in you But I don't know how you could see this through To hell and back I would’ve followed you For this love that I thought was true But then to see him with you I start to see through your ruse That I was just somethin' for you to use and discard Maybe that’s why I always tryin' harder There was never a me And honestly it hurts to think of how long I never knew And it stings And I guess when you searched up pictures of wedding rings None of them were for me You took all the effort Out of my fingers And turned it to Ashes It was all for you love Pen and to paper Confessing my temper I guess there was never A me and You But I guess in the end The truth that I knew were only the lies that you’d bend See there was never a me And there was never a you And there was never a us And it hurts me like hell to know I’m telling the truth But that’s what I do I lie to myself to try and not to fall apart Cuz that’s how I deal with my broken heart I look back on the lines and the attempts seem pathetic empathetic to myself I never cared about anyone else I just made it for myself Maybe that’s why we never worked All I ever cared about was getting what I thought I deserved I was too focused on makin' verbs To see through your empty promises and comments on his Insta pics I just wanted you to make a choice And well I guess that you did But if I was still with you Then I never would’ve met my wife And I’m so glad I did You took all the effort Out of my fingers And turned it to Ashes It was all for you love Pen and to paper Confessing my temper I guess there was never A me and You