Sicily, Pt. 5

I tried to be selfless But only for you right I was so selfish I miss you on the coldest nights I gave you my trust But over time it corroded to nothing but rust Then decay turned to dust I couldn't get over the fact that there could never be an us I'm messed up No I messed up You were the one The one I gave my heart to The one I showed my scars to I showed you my flaws so you made'em ours too Time helps But I don't think I could feel any worse When we met I was like What's your name cuz I need to know Everything about you made me glow But now I'm lookin at the things that we could've been But I guess now I'll never know I guess we all have to admit That sometimes there are things that are out of our control But I guess You never loved me back And every time I think it It's another knife in my back But what I mean by that Is another freakin' panic attack I love you I promise I would never be dishonest All I wanted was to be honest I love you I promise I would never be dishonest All I wanted was to be honest ya Now your blood stains my carpet My hands red from our bed We've taken our last breath But still It hangs in The air Your shots to my heart left something that I can't repair There's No signs of struggle Cuz You can't go Anywhere Ya No one could've believed in you like I do Or sorry I mean did Out of all the things we said and did How could you do what you did You hurt me You burned me You turned me from myself and made me think I was someone else I wish I knew Was she worth throwing us away Come on tell me the truth I would never do that to you I gave you everything I had All my love you tied up in a plastic bag and suffocated it Til it was nothing but a thought of the past But I guess to you I'm just your last I know someday you'll need me And someday I won't need you Hold up your on my line You tell me you lied I say it's about time You thought that I didn't know But this ain't a Netflix or prime kinda show How much time did we lose because you thought you had somethin' to prove? Ya I love you I promise I would never be dishonest All I wanted was to be honest I love you I promise I would never be dishonest All I wanted was to be honest ya Ya I love you I promise I would never be dishonest All I wanted to be was honest Those are the things that you said to me And I think'em everyday Bye