Missing You

The truth is I'm missing you Had my future planned around you Planned to follow you with everything you do Fully forgot what life was without you God now I sound possessive, obsessive Addicted, to fiction I'm just missing you You're eyes I could get lost in So dark and mysterious Caught myself staring at them often And you're so good with words It's like you made it your 9-5 Making me forget to breathe and I'm Left speechless all the time And you put up with my shit Even when it's so repetitive So I decided to let you in And I'm kinda wishing I didn't I know you had to leave it was for your own safety I know it's not your fault Did you wanna keep this or were you okay leaving I wonder if you fought I really thought it'd be forever And I hate the idea of forever But all I really need to know is are you fine right now Or are you dying right now Because I'm dying right now I bet you're fine right now I wanna stop missing you Not because I hate you I just wanna forget your smile Wanna delete your photos But that feels so mean and cold Don't wanna be mean Don't wanna be cold Just wanted to meet Just wanted to grow old Grow old G-g-grow old Wanted to grow old Wanted to grow Wanted to grow, wanted to grow old Just wanted to grow old, grow old So many memories we coulda made So many things, a whole life to paint Be better than our parents Be better than the ones before us Be the best we could be Just wanted to grow old But I'll grow old alone