unemployed

I been thinking I should let go of everything Cause no one around me is worth keeping thats the life I settled for Except my baby who is struggling to keep me Cause she thinks I fucking suck but I'm the best they got in store And if I try to find a light in the dark She would guide me pointing fingers make me walk the rest alone I'm unemployed but I still work to help myself I think I work alot harder then I ever get credit for Maybe I'm a piece of shit okay I know it You dont gotta make me notice things I see when I'm fucking down Or maybe I shouldnt exist I tried to sober up But it is not my purpose to be old and in a fucking house I never settled for you, I only settled to choose I love you more then the pills I do But would you throw it away For a lot of cocaine Or a night with another dude I think I'm just in my fucking head I know that you never said this shit I just know I'm gonna end up dead Whats the point of it you know that I'm with you I could follow you in spirit I could tell you what I'm feeling You could tell me how you really feel And you know id make improvements Wrist ballen like a shooter I got it I dont think she wants me imma keep walking Imma keep on trying till she say that i got it If I look back you would you leave or would you follow I got big pockets but I dont got lots of options Its either you love me or you hate me I want it I just want the truth all she wants is my wallet I just want the blue, crushing up my narcotics I been thinking I should let go of everything Cause no one around me is worth keeping thats the life I settled for Except my baby who is struggling to keep me Cause she thinks I fucking suck but I'm the best they got in store And if I try to find a light in the dark She would guide me pointing fingers make me walk the rest alone I'm unemployed but I still work to help myself I think I work alot harder then I ever get credit for