she "fixed" me

I was organizing my notes on my phone scrolling one day Trying to find lyrics to perform on a beat that I had just made I scrolled for several fucking hours and then got deja vu Of when we broke up scrolling through text messages that never relayed I used to wonder why you hurt me, like what did I do to betray One day we were okay, the next day you weren't the same You told your friends that you could fix me, then why did you fill me with hate Like bitch you made me this way, so why do you face me in vain It makes me scratch my head like damn, you thought this shit could be fixed You found me sleeping on your homie's couch with drugs in my hands Like did you love who I was, and now do you hate who I am Then you fixed me supposedly, like do you hate how I just switched Does the old me scream through broken glass just begging for a chance And does the facade of your recreation reek of old distress Do you love who you made, and do you love what you did Do you even think I'm the same person, and do you hate who you kiss I was trying to figure it out, but shit I guess we're on just different mindsets From facing lines to facing faceless lies of secrecy, I'll digress It's been hard to digest all these emotions that we argue about From sleeping on the couch, to giving you something to talk about Every day, 365 days of the year But you still sneak on my phone and message bitches from last year And then you wake me up in tears like why'd you message this bitch Like shit, if you wanted me to cheat, you should've left my ass unfixed I would've did it if I never had a reason or a purpose to change You told me straight up the day I turned to a man that you would be saved And then I did it, now you act like you hate me when I am this way You did this shit, it's not my fault you can't handle love without pain