Sometimes It Still Hurts, Pt. 1

Sometimes it still hurts And I hate that I still think about you cause Honestly you don't even deserve my thoughts and they say forgive but don't forget But I would wipe out every memory of you if I had the choice I wanna forget everything about you I want to forget your voice and when I close my eyes I want it to be too hard to picture You I want to forget the bad and the good too And maybe I wish we would've just stayed strangers Cause sometimes I think I regret meeting you I guess my head and my heart are aligned right now because in my head I almost hate You But my heart wants to look past the bad and continue to love you One day I wrote a poem that said if my heart was a person she would hate me She would beat me until I felt dead enough to barely breathe but alive enough to still feel Pain Because this is how I set her up to feel when I take the chance of forcing her to love Someone who is not able to love her back I added that in this poem because I did it again I'm sorry heart I'm sorry that I set you up again And maybe my punishment was this one sided soul tie I know this is selfish but I hate how you get to hurt me and continue to live a happy life I got the knife while you walked out pain free I say God brings people into my life for a reason But I'm still trying to figure out what the purpose behind this could be Cause I got nothing from you And luckily you got what you wanted out of me I poured into you and you left me half empty So you won take your trophy