I Am

i've been asking some questions. Like how did I get here and where did I come from? Dad said I’m Trini but cant say confidently that aint enough for me I wanna go back back to the motherland Back so I understand the beauty of my skin Beauty that they pay for different than we pay for Beauty that can endure says that I can take more Been asking the questions When I’ve got the time I can’t stay out my mind i wanna have the answers to live in the light i wanna know how to make the most of my life What should I do next? What did I learn? What should I not say? Don’t talk out of turn. Why can’t I focus? I dont know if i care Is it my fault or was I set up to fail? Hm. What where why who am I? Why am I? (Just who I am.) Hm. What where why who am I? Why am I? (Just who I am.) Hm. What where why who am I? Why am I? (Just who I am.) I did the math on my loans How’d I pay 74% off of what I owed But still owe the 1% 70% more? Can’t make it make sense. F*ck them. They made it seem like the only way out Then chained me up to their pockets no doubt No I dont think I’ll ever be free The wealthy men will send their goons on me If I leave without paying my debt For a life I refuse to regret no I decided they wont hold me down If they want me they’ll have to take me out For real this time. I might be cornered but im still in this fight As a black man the best thing I can do is love a black man. Go grab a church fan. I got a sermon for the church fans. I am the son of a preacher man. He and my mom my greatest teachers. No disrespect to believers. I believe in love. everything is love above all else. I love myself. what kind of love would damn me to hell? the world i occupy needs my kinda love if truth we tell. I know better. I do better. I feel better. im really trying to better now, right now. in the moment, never knowing, present. not just waiting for my blessing, i go and get it i do whatever’s best for me. What’s meant for me. my Destiny? chile im not sure completely. i do know there’s gotta be more than dirty ways for them to keep me stuck in my place so I pray.