Solitude

Stumbling- into his shimmering glass cage The artist looks out at the crowd in madness and rage  He's actually been at this from a very young age You just happened to flip to the first open page  I got tomes to tell Spent the last few years dwelling On a lot of shit medication won't dispel It's time Time and balm on burns The older I get, the more shit I unlearn Mind a machine, a million whirring gears Grinding to dust what's been set in stone for years It's dangerous, know just enough to make me aimless The mooring lines been severed, adrift and untethered Absolutely gone Thought about running from home, the only thing I know Scary when what's between your ears out of control Sole owner of a fractured soul A little empathy what I need, please, make me whole All the world's a stage, don't know who I'm playing Earth move under my feet, faded and unstable Divining my future, crystal far from clear Migraine memories a little muddled Got a lot to live up to Growing up watching moms on TV On stage, trust me when I say that's a strange way to be Not a child, but something in between I've been an old soul since 2003 Seen people's emotions scarlet on their sleeve Harder, lately, for me to see me Become my only friend, greatest enemy Friendships fleeting, lived with a lot of acquaintances  Loneliest days rarely ones alone at home Trying for self care but falling apart The seams fraying, solitude can break your heart