Unholy War

I think I never really wanted to die It's too hard, too easy, I got too much pride More importantly it's a few who need me alive You want to Stay, every fucking day you have to decide Tell me what you see looking into my eyes Bout the same shade as what we used to call sky I'm just fighting My innocence miscarried, always understood hate And porn got my ass by the tender age of eight Took ten years for me to get my fucking head straight Ex girlfriend had scars from holding the weight Last girl I laid with had burn marks on her skin I warned her, leave Maryland, don't let the cycle spin So much potential and she gon fucking die in Towson F*ck We all soldiers in the same war That's why Good Will Hunting hurts so much more since 2004 Teen bout when my mom got cancer Shit raised questions I don't even want to answer War with every doubt that you could possibly conceive Silent screams through the screen watching World War Three 27 my birthday, I hope not my death year The grim reaper creeping, I can hear him but I'm still here And a ways from my magnum Opus Like to stick around to write it, least that's what the hope is Been given everything but thumb my nose in God's face And yes, I would have it almost any other way But this is my path, and I'm too scared to stray I won't ask you to stay, I'm only chasing my grave Solipsism the worst fate, you better off dead But I can't help showing you the worst side of my head