Midas Skies

My life flashed before my eyes I'm paying the price, for a reckless life Became a person that I despise Masquerading in my disguise Black and white under Midas skies No pot of gold, at the end Of this rainbow, so why pretend That everything's peachy, all clear But nobody's tryna reach me Asking "how you've been?" When I've been screaming (F*CK!) At the top of my lungs Crying out for a hand to hold I'm losing control I'm tired of suffering in silence I just wanna scream it out to the heavens now I'm tired of battling with my demons. I just wanna shut em out, I don't know how I'm tired of letting things go like I didn't give a f*ck, I'm confessing now I'm fucked up, in my head, in my brain I'm in pain from this act I can't maintain Cause they say I gotta be, gotta be (PERFECT!) But I'm living in misery Reminiscing every moment in my history Why can't I ever get anything right? Even when I do it ends in a fight Surrendering quietly Ever so slightly Pushing me down to the brink, can't even think, It's getting too much for my brain to handle this bullshit Feeling my own existence is too cruel, shit I'm through, shit Cause Sooner or later I'm reaching my limit Words from my mouth gradually getting explicit I'm cursing out everything in my vicinity Please give me the remedy For this aching in my chest, screaming "can I get some rest?" from this masquerade I'm just tryna do my best, but every time it's just a test, another game played Sick and tired of all these expectations Trials and tribulations, I'm losing my patience because I'm I'm fucked up, in my head, in my brain I'm in pain from this act I can't maintain I'm tired of suffering in silence I just wanna scream it out to the heavens now I'm tired of battling with my demons. I just wanna shut em out, I don't know how I'm tired of letting things go like I didn't give a f*ck, I'm confessing now I'm fucked up, in my head, in my brain I'm in pain from this act I can't maintain Feel this aching in my chest, screaming "can I get some rest?" from this masquerade I'm just tryna do my best, but every time it's just a test, another game played Sick and tired of all these expectations Trials and tribulations, I'm losing my patience because I'm I'm fucked up, in my head, in my brain I'm in pain from this act I can't maintain