The Greenest I've Ever Seen

I wasn't always a mess It's like my life is a series of failed attempts Like a landslide On the inside While the outside seems just fine I wasn't always intense I used to lie through my teeth And you'd never have guessed I was selfish No perspective And I've never forgiven myself I spent the best part of the year Searching for something better than here 'Cause I don't know Exactly what I need I spent the best part of the week Watching the ground get pulled out from under me Knocked off my feet Down to my knees to find The grass here is the greenest I've ever seen I've always lived in my mind It's like I don't fit in, though I try Like Pinocchio or Frankenstein Just call me Number Five How do I feel? I feel alive! I made myself my own victim Killing any part of me that won't listen The sound of the screams Is music to me It's like they're singing me to sleep I spent the best part of the year Searching for something better than here 'Cause I don't know Exactly what I need I spent the best part of the week Watching the ground get pulled out from under me Knocked off my feet Down to my knees to find The grass here is the greenest I've ever seen I spent the best part of the year Searching for something better than here 'Cause I don't know Exactly what I need I spent the best part of the week Watching the ground get pulled out from under me Knocked off my feet Down to my knees to find The grass here is the greenest I've ever seen The grass here is the greenest I've ever seen The grass here is the greenest I've ever seen