Not For Me

You have a good time, I'm a little bit less than festive I'm a little bit less than rested I'm a little bit more than testy How bout you, don't test my limits I don't front like f*ck those gimmicks Look in my eyes, I feel like a cynic Baby I try to live it up But I bit it, all that dust, all that trust Down the drain, all that lust, wasn't love If that's right then I'm insane F*ck this truce, I'll go mute You're so perfect, I've been fucked up since my perfect youth Wanted to blap me from the abuse You view me as so obtuse Baby you right, I've been confused In between, loving and hating the juice Flip me around, say I choose you Cause I never did, I see me, and say who I get some fucking needy heeding All that wrong advice From my shadow, taking flights High above, I'm seething, you see nice You say damn, they must be feeling better Made it through that stormy weather Severed what was making them write open letters Trash them, you know better You can't die, no you can't leave Quiet baby, I could be reprieve That's what I thought, just not for me Not for me, me, me, me, me, me Not for me, me, me, me, me, me Not for me, me, me, me, me, me I see you with another Grit my teeth, bitch to my brother Holy f*ck, I guess I'm soft She swore I needed, getting off Like my bets, I need more talk So impulsive, cursing God Huffing, puffing, kill my odds Lust n love is not what got Me out my head, it was you, you, you That was you, but you're not for me Or could you be? Is it not reality? To address a casualty Only drugs on my phone, I felt so alone You had a lot on your plate though I thought I never should say so I thought I never should Say how I feel Spilling my guts on the pavement, there's no appeal Peace was close, then I closed the chapter with my lachrymose Shattered hopes, knowing you'll be ghost I can feel me breaking tropes Too little, too late, while you be doing a lot For somebody, not for me Me, me, me, me, me, me Not for me, me, me, me, me, me Not for me, me, me, me, me, me I see you with another Grit my teeth, bitch to my brother Holy f*ck, I guess I'm soft She swore I needed getting off Like my bets I need more talk So impulsive, cursing God Huffing, puffing, kill my odds Lust n love is not what got Me out my head, it was you, you, you Now I'm all alone It's all that I've ever known Home never will feel like home I just wish that I had Something to convince you I'm alright Without you by my side By my side