2019

I was boxed out when you were locked in Never thought in the end I'd ever hurt a friend Over some dumb shit, and yes, it's my fault I was stunned, shit Mental turmoil and all the suns skipped Left me anxious and afraid, I never learnt, I strayed away I was overwhelmed and underpaid, played no fucking games Shifting and smoking sage, catch me sitting All enraged, as I turned another page My expressions left me dazed And confused about all that I had done Locked myself up in my room During then, a month In New York smoking blunts With the people, who I needed They made me realize who I was and who I strived to be when I had started this, never wrote from the heart with this Feeling so intense, been a bit since I departed with Knowing we end at the same spot Been doing therapy, I'm taking the same shots Wherever my aims not I focus to stay calm And right all of my dang wrongs If possible, plausible, hope regained To astronomical, and yes Catch me wrecking How this man methodical? Rewind time Just a little bit Back to 2019 Back to where you find me We had started Me and Dom were sleeping on the couch I was bagging food ignoring other routes Now we up in front of crowds Making younger me proud I'm craving energy now Swim in the rhythm, I drown My own reality out So I have space for the positive Notice that I've gotten this Game on the chain with a collar bitch Uh Load a dooby from the ash tray While watching Half Baked With the homies on a half day Those were the times But we've moved on I'm 21 I've grown wiser and from The New Moons that have passed Stay up late to just bug Take a break, thought the hums Would've awakened me but I needed skill to move up Problems crept to a shrug I do accept all I've done There's no changing what's done But I can learn from the Past mass of experience Wrote this as a lad tad delirious And fearless, better quit Cause' the one man drumming And y'all just bumming Hey world, you better hear me humming