Deception

The biggest lie i've told Was telling everyone I loved them I don't know what it is I don't know how it feels Ive been numb sunce i was ten Nine years in the making I know everybody's fear And it's mine for the taking Nobody knows mine And all my lies Nobody knows how the old me died I killed him i committed suicide In a room with plenty of space to hide I'm not tryna be like you I'm not tryna hide When I loved you But was it really true I just run I just hide Push everyone to the side I'm so cold I'm so sorry I killed and mourned his life With everything inside Now I don't cry I just lie I fight But this time it's worse This time it hurts I wanna say sorry But will it work I think I loved someone I think they love me back But will they be the one That puts my heart back