Cement Shoes

Dolly in my pocket, I'm feeling nauseous World getting hard to process The lumps in my throat won't fall apart with a lozenge It smarts when the bitterness lodges deep in my chest Dollar bills seeped in tears and sweat Starting to feel like I need the sweet release of death But I'm scared, so I keep my seat at my desk They say I seem depressed, seem depressed It's cause I live in the bleakest west, bleakest west Cement shoes seeped in debt, seeped in debt Hid myself in my closet, immediately felt peace and wept I guess I should just accept the ticking time bomb that is my life They say I seem depressed, seem depressed It's cause I live in the bleakest west, bleakest west Cement shoes seeped in debt, seeped in debt Hid myself in my closet, immediately felt peace and wept I guess I should just accept the ticking time bomb that is my life When will I be an adult I try to state my feelings, but they're locked in a vault Always apologizing for shit that's not my fault I'll say yes to lobotomizing so I can erase my flaws Either way, feeling the blackness is better than feeling grey Insecurities unattractive till you're havin' a bad day And you want someone to understand Instead of feeling alone and upside down like a handstand A horrifying rush of blood to the head It's mortifying what you'll do to make pain descend Look a bit closer, you'll slowly turn against your friends Some things inside you are sacred You have to save it and hold it close to the bitter end They say I seem depressed, seem depressed It's cause I live in the bleakest west, bleakest west Cement shoes seeped in debt, seeped in debt Hid myself in my closet, immediately felt peace and wept I guess I should just accept the ticking time bomb that is my life They say I seem depressed, seem depressed It's cause I live in the bleakest west, bleakest west Cement shoes seeped in debt, seeped in debt Hid myself in my closet, immediately felt peace and wept I guess I should just accept the ticking time bomb that is my life