Miserable in Secret

Just gotta say how I'm really feeling I don't wanna feel no ways That's just how I get some days I know I gotta make things right In my mind, in my life, fore I die yeah Wanna feel happiness I'm getting tired of being sad and shit Cause no one ever sees it And I'm miserable in secret, yeah Wanna feel like we're wanted From the friends and the fam that we got, shit And that might be all in my head But I steady been so disconnected from everything Who am I to trust or confide in? When everybody got a mask they hide in I don't know who I should keep at my side When the ones that I love always leave me behind and We all need a hand for the long haul Real ones who give a damn bout our thought process Lately I feel like everybody knockoffs That switch sides anytime when you got none Left to give them, they leave you missing The time you spent and then you get to thinking It never mattered in the first place Get sad and the tears start to rain But you just gotta wipe your face That's just how it gets some days You and I gotta make things right In our minds and our lives fore we die, yeah We all wanna get a bit of happiness And everybody gets sad bout shit But no one ever sees it Cause we're all miserable in secret, yeah Small people in a big world It's never peaceful, everybody gets hurt At one point or another And that's why I always roll up in the summer Sitting in the sun tryna Forget my problems, sometimes I could never solve them I couldn't stay at the bottom, said f*ck that shit now I'm solid Got knowledge, I'm never thoughtless I used to wander in solemn polluting my body with toxins Nothing inside the wallet Jobless without an option And now I can't take a loss and I'm taking they spots I'm robbing I got it, don't ever test me Popping off like a weapon I'm watching out for deception I knew as an adolescent Too many people snakes, I hate it I can't relate I ain't angry just gotta say Quite frankly you fuckers fake I'm making music they crave Splashing I'm making waves I'm lapping them on the track Might happen to win the race, yeah yeah They ask why I be so cynical Dark past and a brain full of chemicals Smoke gas in the whip that's typical It's not Pokemon but them hits been critical I need a life more live-able With more money and my work life minimal Gone through a lot, yeah the past been difficult I hope that this don't last Because I'm miserable in secret If I told you would you keep it Cause I don't think that I can deal with Anymore holding in these feelings I can't fall off staying far from the deep end Always got my guard up, good defense Gotta stay true to the ones who could see when See me when I was miserable in secret Miserable in secret, if I told you would you keep it? Yeah