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Uh I've got no ability to love I'm toxic from deep inside People always break me Whenever I show them love It's a battle of prides Closure has got a price Now when I'm happy It's either pretending 'cause I'm not Shut my heart And put a yellow tape around it It's off limits for every person That claims they love me I can't afford to fall for words Be practical about it I have internal wounds That are like my wrist The pain is timeless I never thought I'd neglect A person that really loves me Never thought I would love A person that doesn't love me While I'm still alive and kicking I am feeling lifeless 'Cause that's what happens when they take Advantage of your kindness Sometimes I feel suicidal Till I think 'bout my Momma We've came a long way together Can't imitate my father He left you When you needed him the most I never will 'Cause if I'd take my life Then who's gonna Take care of Momma Life ain't fairytales Life ain't very fair Life will take you places Tour in hell so stay prepared I'm only 18 Cried an ocean of tears There's nothing I know better than Betrayal Poverty and pain Ask me to name a friend I'd say my book and pen No one is ever loyal Till the very end But who said it ain't normal If you ain't got no friends In a person You should never engrave your happiness Love any person without expectations This goes for every person Including your family Blood is thicker than water Till you have dropped your standards Back at home they think comparison Is a form of motivation Love is what they said they have for me But fail to show it Instead they did the worst They always left me broken How do you hold me accountable For not loving you Trusting you You were never there When days were dark and lonely Tried to be consistent And not disappoint Seems like I'm trying too hard To not be below At a very young age Too much weight on my shoulders I feel unprotected Mentally I got no choices They called me weak and useless Never noticed my worth I've always tried to blend in With some mental bruises mate Never confided my feelings 'Cause I was too afraid That I would be That weak person who never Stood himself All those sleepless nights Heart is aching hard Tears are falling down No one heard my cry I'm broken Hopeless Torn within I was treated like dirt But I still stood And faked a smile For all the people that I've met They've met a different me 'Cause I'm a person With a million personalities It's even harder to swallow No one believes in me I plead guilty My life is a crazy predicament I'm gonna fly away It's a brand new day Good things are coming my way (Oh oh ohh) (Oh oh ohh ooh) I'm gonna fly away Oh ohh oh ohh Oh ohh And I'm only 18