Doppelganger

Fourteen year's old with a ziploc bag in my pocket Lifting off on that rocket, my friends all packed in the cockpit I'm cautious, unaware of the force in a g Taking it slow no forced energy Fortunately it all worked out could've gone more south than the Florida Keys More jittery at the moment though cause the unbeknownst potent dose Would go toe to toe with my psyche In a night either turning my soul to coal or gold I closed the door to outside the room Pale-faced with albino shrooms Black sky white moon so I'm feeling stable as I consume Feeling so good Feeling brand new I could live in this world forever How bout you? One hour later, out in nature, simply roamin' I'm a gladiator Counting blades of grass on the ground Occasionally looking at outer space bruh You'd think that I'm sounding made up When I say I had never felt so great Mentos shaken in soda I need to explode, Homogenic song 8 Plus 1? We don't need more faces We've all been on the peak for ages Forming bonds with other people That's been running deeper than the seafloor's elevation The decor is amazing as well, walls of malachite meet the eyes Himalayan salt lamp glows pink In more than one way I've seen the light Feeling so good Feeling brand new I could live in this world forever How bout you? As the sun get's to rising the fun begins subsiding Psilocybin it had me thriving but deprived of it now I'm crying Nothing but silence in the air, slowly realizing sitting here That I'm still aware maybe too aware Dark thoughts but they really clear, hard watch looking in the mirror What's staring back at me isn't a kid Twisted my lid open early and ever since then I'm ajar and been filled to the brim with a sense of dread, fears of death This crisis existential so I write to get out that loop Don't wanna be lead-filled like my pencil