PTSD

I be smilin' way too much when I'm in public But that's how I cope with the pain, so **** it Used to have hope, but that changed, now I'm wonderin' Do you really love me like you say? If you don't, that's okay, just don't lie to me That wouldn't even be a surprise to me, no Huh, huh, yeah, this is what it look like with my guard up, ayy Phone full of numbers I should probably call up I tend to change the subject every time it's brought up, ayy Wonder what it feel like when it's all love, ayy But then they remind me why I put them walls up, uh When I feel uncomfortable, I can't let them see me being vulnerable I would rather die alone than let them bleed me dry, no Nowadays, I don't believe you love me like you say I notice you ain't solid as you say Notice how my circle changing to another shape, ayy PTSD hittin' hard, I feel betrayed PTSD make it hard to be okay, ayy PTSD tellin' me to get away, ayy PTSD show me how to deal with pain Huh, huh, yeah Think I lost it, shawty on my leg, she tryna play Feelin' nauseous, GG 80 proof up in my veins Too much talkin', rather ride the whip, I'm switchin' lanes All this damage to my body for your love is killin' me PTSD, you feelin' nice, babe Recuperate my soul, this drama is gettin' old to me Nowadays, I don't believe you love me like you say I notice you ain't solid as you say Notice how my circle changing to another shape, ayy PTSD hittin' hard, I feel betrayed PTSD make it hard to be okay, ayy PTSD tellin' me to get away, ayy PTSD show me how to deal with pain