Impetus

So here I sit A sinking ship I'm on my way to the bottom My conscious slips A dark descent The weight is crushing my body Searching for the memories of the ones I love But no faces come to mind I'm so scared now of what's to come They have all been plotting my demise Day to day, there is no change Moments in life bleed and rearrange Am I not worthy of purpose Why do I even care Who am I to think I am owed anything besides despair Purposeless existence I have lost my way Everyday feels the same So I suffer in silence The pain sustains Bathe in thoughts of violence (Let go) (Run away) Just a few more feet and I'll be knocking on deaths door If he's here show no fear kick it in and steal his fucking pale horse Ride into the night Caught in between Just a few more feet and I'll be knocking on deaths door If he's here show no fear kick it in and steal his fucking pale horse Ride into the night Caught in between No purpose No answers live in me Ripped open My lungs are filling with the seas Imagination Everything is not as it seems Everything is not as it seems I find no hope No way to cope If fear is all I'll ever find I'd rather find a fucking rope