Prosophobia

Am I dead Am I dead Does it matter what kind of life I have led Constantly compared to all of my peers Debilitated by my accumulating fears My accumulating fears And now I struggle alone As I get left behind Uniquely useless I am one of a kind Paralyzed I'm frozen in place This world moves At a much faster pace Loved ones Become So shapeless and distant I had a chance to grow I had a chance to grow Had a chance to grow But I missed it I had my chance to grow But I fucking missed it What do I want Is it within my reach Procrastination Taking hold over me Struggle alone as I get left behind Uniquely useless i am one of a kind What if I fail What if I fail Choke on the thought as my life grows cold and stale What if I fail What if I fail Give up the ghost Hope and passion have set sail What must I do To be worthy of peace Running out of time I just need a reprieve What must I do To be worthy of peace I can not stay here But I can not leave