Lost Contradiction

In the pandemonium of my land, so taxing to comprehend Where thoughts collide and scatter, turbulence that never ends Plans almost complete, stop, restart, forever on repeat Caught in this cycle, the turmoil, bittersweet In the stillness, I find a moment's peace But the silence breaks, thoughts never cease A dance of contradictions, pulling me apart A symphony of chaos, a never-ending spark I'm a tempest and tranquillity, an inferno and a freeze A myriad of trajectories, none offering peace In the penumbra, I unearthed fragments concealed A fractured essence, where hubris is revealed In a world of commitments, the rip and tear, A tug-of-war within, an ignorance to comprehend. Navigating through the chaos, clarity is forsaking, Every step forward, another part breaking In the stillness, I find a moment's peace But the silence breaks, thoughts never cease A dance of contradictions, pulling me apart A symphony of chaos, a never-ending spark In the mirror, I see the reflection unclear A language of my mind, no one else can hear Words tangled and twisted - lost in translation A silent scream of endless devastation Trying to decode creates complex anger, and frustration I'm a tempest and tranquillity, an inferno and a freeze A myriad of trajectories, none offering peace In the penumbra, I unearthed fragments concealed A fractured essence, where hubris is revealed In the pandemonium of my land, so taxing to comprehend Where thoughts collide and scatter, turbulence that never ends Plans almost complete, stop, restart, forever on repeat Caught in this cycle, the turmoil, bittersweet Every flaw, every scar, a testament to be The unique essence that makes me, me In this final revelation, I finally understand What is this harmony, could I possibly begin to comprehend I'm a tempest and tranquillity, an inferno and a freeze A myriad of trajectories, none offering peace In the penumbra, I unearthed fragments concealed A fractured essence, where hubris is revealed