The River

Do it again n get it right, yea And now I’m thinkin’ bout you, ay F*ck it Listen up Wide awake, but not thinkin’ of you And the times you didn’t care It’s like you picked and choosed One night I was so fuckin’ stressed The next day I couldn’t leave my bed Was stuck in my head Insults shoutin’ at a faster rate than the rain comin’ down as the ground decays And I don’t know if Imma be okay I got a habit takin’ too many to numb the pain It never works Probably never will Novocaine pumpin’ through me Nothing left to feel Back and forth, debating to myself Am I all alone? I got a lotta friends How many of ‘em truly care? I don’t know I don’t know about anything anymore Nothing feels the same to me My heart and mind are at a war I’m fuckin’ done I got nothin’ left on my plate So when I’m gone Just remind yourself of better days Man, f*ck Yea, just how I feel But you keep hittin’ my phone The f*ck am I supposed to do? My minds just different, this year It’s for the better Dump my body in a cold, black, river Over my chest you can place our picture Over time, it’ll wash up faded and grey Kinda funny now, that’s the way it is today I don’t care about your feelings I don’t care if you’re a mess Stop comin’ back to me I hate this fuckin’ stress The other day I tore our picture up And ripped it off the wall Deleted every photo of us What we had is gone Not even bittersweet I’m done wit you Don’t wanna meet For a day, or a second you will never see me Ever again and that’s the way it should be I know this tears you apart and you can barely breathe But one day, you’ll find relief And you’ll promise to yourself You won’t be thinkin’ of me The day will come and I’ll be dead to you And you’ll be dead to me Rest in piece Yea, how's that for a heartbreak?