asking for a lot

You are so precious but I'm contagious, depressive thoughts my lullaby This one is causing my legs to turn away from what I thought was mine And you keep on giving me love because you don't know any better Just like an ant trapped in a circle that I made myself Would you love me if the I fix you's won't even matter? They wouldn't work because my life is already shattered I know you care that's why I wonder and get lost in my own thoughts I'd clue you in but you'd see monsters, those are the ones I say hi to I wouldn't be mad I'd leave you on your own I would understand, I'm asking for a lot I'm not the rocky pillar of safety, you feel so safe around me why? and if you get those new materials, would you wanna build it right? I have an inner choir made of doubts so loud that you can't hear But I bet they echo when I'm not around Would you love me if the I fix you's won't even matter? They wouldn't work because my life is already shattered I know you care that's why I wonder and get lost in my own thoughts I'd clue you in but you'd see monsters, those are the ones I say hi to I wouldn't be mad I'd leave you on your own I would understand, I'm asking for a lot