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I'm seeing all the signs
That's leading to dark days
I'm teetering to the side
And watching the stars fade
The beauty in your eyes
Is making my heart break
Mistakes eat me alive
I'm stuck in a shark tank, survived
But was it worth what it cost
I can't reverse what I've lost
And is the worst in the past
Or is my life better off
Without myself in the way
There's nothing helping today
I got so much that I could say
But I just locked it away
I tell myself like everyday
Today's the day that I'll change
But in my heart, I know I'm broken
I've been stuck in my ways
I take this pain that I've been given
And I smoke it away
My opportunities are wasted
When I'm lost in the space
Where I just hate what I've become
Replay the shit that I've done
Like it's a movie and I watch it
'Til I'm gripping my gun
Wish I could overcome this feeling
But instead, I just run
To open bottles to the point
Where drinking's no longer fun
It's like a part of me's my arch enemy
Start to see him often
Hard to part with half a heart
I keep the key to where he's locked in
In the closet hear him knocking
Try to silence the noise
But I've never stopped it
Hear him talking, try to quiet the voice
I end up boxed inside my conscience
As I run through the void
I'm feeling lost without an option
'Cept the ones I avoid
I know I probably could blossom
If I made the right choice
But those have always been the hardest
It's a pain to find joy
I was hoping to find
My peace of mind
I always knew I would fly
Until I touched the sky
Use the galaxy of stars
To guide me to new heights
I'm balanced from reaching far
And taking a full stride
The beauty in your heart's
The reason I still fight
Regardless of all the scars
I'm living a real life, in charge
I know it's worth what it cost
I can't reverse what I've lost
And if the worst is to come
I know I'm still better off
I had to learn my own might
Defy the world to find light
Ignite a fire in my mind
Let it rise 'til it shines bright
I tell myself like every night
Tomorrow, I'll do it better
I guess a part of me is healing
Mostly writing these letters
The same pain that I was feeling
Now is light as a feather
I took control of where I'm going
Got my sights on forever
I never liked who I was then
But now I love who I am
I ditched the script and gained a vision
Saw the world in my hands
There's nothing I could never conquer
Know exactly where I stand
No longer bottle up my fears
As I act on a greater plan
It's like half of me's in the past
But I need him to make it past
Can't delete him
'Cause he's the reason I'm seeing a different path
So, I bring him, I hear him knocking
Ignore him, I keep walking
He's talking but I ain't stopping
What he says, I do the opposite
I even found my confidence
Walking outside the void
I ain't lost, never out of options
My demons start to avoid me
Stopped listening to the voice
And I blossomed, it was a choice
It was the hardest one to make
But it led me to find joy
I was hoping to find
My peace of mind
I always knew I would fly
Until I touched the sky