Not Okay

Hey son how you doing How's your mama How's your brother holding on How you do it all on your own I don't know Well hold up, I don't know you like that You should probably ask somebody different If I'm being honest I don't know what's going on And I know, I'm never alone, from the depths of my soul I never knew that I needed you All I knew is that you walked away I know it's gon' be okay, be okay But right now I'm not okay It's almost like the walls were caving in And you simply didn't care I was just a kid growing up With no father figure there And honestly, I wanted to hate you But I simply forgave you, cause I was blessed with the Fathers love, and For years I'd pretend And deep down, it felt like my pain wouldn't end But soon I realized That I just can't rewind Can't bring back lost time But the gift of forgiveness isn't yours It's mine I never knew that I needed you All I knew is that you walked away I know it's gon be okay, be okay But right now I'm not okay Don't get it twisted, I didn't lose you You lost the privilege of raising me And you don't get to take the credit for the person I've become, see My mom and God became the father you couldn't be I never knew that I needed you All I knew is that you walked away I know it's gon be okay, be okay But right now I'm not okay I'm Not Okay I don't feel, I don't feel okay But right now I'm not okay