If You're Listening

Oh I fucked up Yeah I lied and I cheated and said things I'll never be proud of Let my own fears and doubts get the worst out of me Til I went down The one route that would push you past our bounds All the way out Oh it's true how They say you can't love anyone else until you love your own self Wasn't ready to be who I wanted to be So I gave up And lost the best thing that had happened to me I let go of the dream Before he could Leave on his own accord But you didn't deserve this How could I dismiss The last person who Saw some innocence Still left within me At least now you are free To get away from the Damage that I cause Through self sabotage You deserve to pause And collect your thoughts All at your own speed I know you can't forgive me But I'll be missing All that we had through the happy the sad all our history And if you're listening There's no words I can say to take the pain away But I'm sorry I'm so sorry You deserve love Someone you trust Much more than what I gave to you I wish you peace I pray you'll be So damn happy Now that you're free Know it trues when I say it wasn't about you It was all me And if you're listening I'm so sorry