Legacy

Waking up in a cold sweat from a nightmare Of me walking out on a big stage With a knife and ending my life there Wifey like, I'm right here Babe you alright, and I'm like yeah Knowing she can see right through me Everytime I lie, she quite scared Of what's going on in my head Hell so am I Still battling with depression That don't mean that I wanna die Yea I've contemplated suicide But I'm better now, at least mentally But I can't lie, it don't feel good To be 35 and still tryna figure out What I wanna do, who I wanna be When I look in the mirror, what do I see Am I living up to my potential Did I follow my dreams When I die, what kind of legacy do I wanna leave What I wanna do, who I wanna be When I look in the mirror, what do I see Am I living up to my potential Did I follow my dreams When I die, what kind of legacy do I wanna leave Will I be the man that my father was Will I even be half of that Will I be around long enough For me to have the chance to answer that Will I die the same way he did Due to heart failure and obesity So many health problems in our history Realistically, can I manage that All of my life I been fat Despite my effort to lose weight Hell I gained more through the pandemic No self control, I'm losing faith I just wanna live long enough For my cause of death to be old age But I can't escape these bad habits Keep going back to my old ways Some things just hereditary When you study the genetics Embedded within you Man it can get hella scary If you let it worry you Before you know it you'll be dead and buried So cherish the time that you have Live for the moment, let go of the past Before your forevers get turned into neveraries I know everyone wanna be legendary But legend has it When you in a casket, in a cemetery It don't fucking matter They don't love you now They won't love you after If they don't love you now They won't love you after, yea Yea If you're listening right now Thank you If this is your first B. ALXNDR project Welcome to my life Uh A window to my soul Expect a lot of vulnerability It might get dark You gon see a side of me that I don't normally show But it's real Authentic, it's me Just want to leave behind something That's gon last forever A legacy Yea Yea, yea yea yea