If I Lose (Anxiety)

I wanna make a hit for the fans But I wonder if the people really care I'm hopping on the stage and i grab the mic stand But I don't even see nobody there I'm going to casinos with some money in my hand But i don't play no games cause im scared I'm scared of whatll happen if i lose If somebody came collectin all they dues See I dont really know what I would do Probablyy throw the money down and id ask em howre you Hows your day goin Tryna wear a mask but ill tell him that his face showin Trying to be helpful I dont want his hate growin Tryna make friends i got enemies for days so I dont need another one that shit distasteful Do you need a snack maybe coffee i got bagels Tryna take a trip i just bought a Winnebago You just gotta say so I wanna make a hit for the fans But i wonder if the people really care I'm hoppin on the stage and i grab the mic stand But i dont even see nobody there Im running to the edge got the rail in my hand But i aint lookin down cause im scared I'm scared of whatll happen if the rail break Long way down and you know i saw End Game Dying on sight (site) i dont wanna be a rare case I'm not tryna end up like Natasha not a fair shake Wait that reminds me im scared of Black Widows Spiders and they webs have terrified me since im little Got way too many legs and their eyes are like triple That shit fucked up scared of sitting in the middle Cause what if we crash how im gonna even get out What if i forgot to lock the door 'fore i went out Or tried to pay a bill and i sent the wrong amount I wanna make a hit for the fans (what happens then) But i wonder if the people really care Im hoppin on the stage and i grab the mic stand But i dont even see nobody there I know that she the one so I grab her by the hand But i dont say a word because im scared Im scared of whatll happen she wont feel the same way i dont wanna hear excuses that i know she gonna make Like nows a bad time cause im movin far away I dont wanna lose a lover and a friend the same day But i gotta take a chance right Looking for a fair fight But this is what its like livin life with anxiety Anything that could happen really aint surprising me Cause i done spent days overanalyzing it Said i done spent days overanalyzing it But this is what its like livin life with anxiety Anything that could happen really aint surprising me Cause i done spent days overanalyzing it Yeah overanalyzing it