Open Letter

Dear Listener This is an open letter Telling y’all how I been feelin’ I think some people will be able to relate I hope this helps Thank you for listening Enjoy I got no dreams to chase (to chase, to chase, to chase) ‘Cause I don’t sleep no I’m always awake So many nights I waste (I waste, I waste, I waste) Just overthinking Myself is killing me I spend my nights lying awake Layin’ out just thinkin’ about all of my mistakes And lately people telling me they’d like to trade their place But I don’t see just what they seein’ when they look into my face ‘Cause when I look into the mirror I don’t see much else All I’m seein’ is the people who exceed myself You used to want my advice now you don’t need my help They try relating to me sayin’ how they feel I felt But you don’t know shit about me and the deal I’m dealt I run the knife across my hand ‘cause I don’t feel much else I throw my body on the sword I’m tryna steel myself And everything up in this game I had to steal myself Now I’m constantly just overthinking every decision Second guessing what I’ve written hell to every revision I was sent out on a mission darkness clouding my vision But now I’m dealin’ with devil under his supervision Thats just the cost me livin’ ‘Cause i I got no dreams to chase (to chase, to chase, to chase) (I got no dreams to chase) ‘Cause I don’t sleep no (you know I don’t sleep) I’m always awake (Always awake) So many nights I waste (I waste, I waste, I waste) (So many nights) Just overthinking Myself is killing me I’ve played my life so defensive now I’m on the attack Cookin’ shit up like I’m Gordon but its gone in a Flash Overthinking when I’m drinking pourin’ more from the flask But shit its gone so fast I feel like I’m the only one who sees the damage I’m doing But I hide it so well that I can’t blame ‘em for snoozing They buyin’ what I sell so they don’t see that I’m losing And I'm just tryin to compel ‘em they don’t think I’m intruding I live my life in the dark a match my only escape Tryna keep it at bay The shit I easily say Just to show ‘em I’m okay and I don’t need their assistance When really I’m just living live I’m always imprisoned See I’m my own worst enemy I hope I can kill him But which of me gon’ really die if thats the shit I envision I dont know myself but shit I thought that I did And I hate myself for all the shit that I did Now I I got no dreams to chase (to chase, to chase, to chase) (I got no dreams to chase) ‘Cause I don’t sleep no (You know I don’t sleep) I’m always awake (Always awake) So many nights I waste (I waste, I waste, I waste) (So many nights) Just overthinking (Yeah) Myself is killing me I play it close to my chest I gotta couple cards that I'mma hold in my vest I keep a couple secrets not exposin’ ‘em yet And you may never learn the truth so stop holdin’ your breath ‘Cause man I been so depressed Feel like I get no respect I gotta lotta memories I’m keep ‘em repressed ‘Cause they’re the source of all my sadness yeah they leavin’ me stressed But now a lotta people askin’ why I’m even upset And all of 'em just actin like I chose this life Like this is really what I want to be alone at night And feel so cold inside But when I close my eyes I can see the better days and I know I’m right So I just gotta keep on grindin’ why are y’all so salty No such thing as perfect timing and nobody stop me Even though I got a heart that is colder than hockey I got my own back if nobody else got me So I I got no dreams to chase (to chase, to chase, to chase) (I got some dreams to chase) ‘Cause I don’t sleep no (No I don’t got time to sleep) I’m always awake (I’m always awake) So many nights I waste (I waste, I waste, I waste) (No time to waste) Just overthinking Myself is killing me This is my dream And I’m gonna follow it even if it kills me Whats yours? Remember You are never alone Sincerely B