20s

Yea, as I write these verses I feel my pain reversing As I soak this beat up I feel my brain reminisce on these years that I've lived, uh So many complicated situations I done been through It feel like I live in mazes Two more months I'm turning 20 No more time to be a kid apologize for all I did My family knows me very well but no one knows me best though Girlfriend I feel bad for her She wants me to open up I try my best to open it but I forgot the safe code I promise that I'm getting better Honestly I wanna talk but if I'm honest I got secrets I won't ever tell no one Thoughts that I can't speak about and fears that sow my mouth shut This my knife I'm cutting open Hopin it'll all spill out I feel like time is running out and I just wanna know what life's about Why can't I be happy with a 9-5 crunching numbers Why don't I stop this madness Why does God still accept me What's the point of getting money Spending it to pay the bills and never live life for the thrills Wishful thinking killed the cat Wait, it wasn't that but I'm still curious about If I could actually be a dad and raise a family Matter fact dad I been thinking lately bout you leaving and I don't think I'm ready for it God I know you know that I Stopped and turned my back, but I'm glad you had my back and I'm still growing on this path Look, you know why you don't play hide and seek alone It's cuz you'll just seek and never find and you don't hide cuz You just hiding from yourself and look Now I'm talking to myself Look, time is running out yes But don't you dare be afraid to seize the day you were made for something great Mama told you that since 8 You got more in your tank Every car needs a tune up just make sure you come back stronger 20 years is quite a lot but not a lot I thank you God for this time that I got... that I got