Make You Proud

Uh, from the late nights To the endless days I did it all To make ya proud From three jobs to staying in school Yea it sucks cuz I don't love it And I feel like I'm on a road That leads to nowhere I feel trapped Running on a make believe road Peloton, I'm stuck in my room And my vision they can't see like Ritchie I wanna be the one they all wanna see like Mickey This elephant in my room is scared of mice So he jus sit right on my chest I can't breathe and I can't move But I'll yell and I'll squirm And do my best to leave the room Cuz I just wanna make you proud You told me be excellent So that's what I been striving for And sometimes it drives me mad And that's when I try to relax But that skill I struggle with I wanna make you proud Though you don't ask me to I'm grinding day and night Cuz I can't stand the thought of me Falling flat, all regret and no reward Is this a war worth fighting for I'm waking up can't fall asleep Cuz I keep pondering If I chose the wrong road I need a sign Lord I do this for me but I still wanna make you proud I still wanna make you proud They say pressure makes a diamond Well then I better be shining Cuz I feel like I've been crushed Had enough of all the long nights Enough of all the criticism Sometimes I feel ignored Kind of like they'll never get it And I wanna give up on this But the last time that I did that I lost you to fear And yea I know that you look down on me I just want you proud of me Cuz a part of me thinks It'll fix the mistakes I've made before I know what I'm aiming for But I can't gauge the fuel tank Man the meter broke I took off but ain't reached new heights I'm still in flight in autopilot Can't complain cuz at least I'm flying We hate our lives but at least we here Life's too short to hold regrets At Least that's what I tell myself Before I close my eyes I wanna make you proud Though you don't ask me to I'm grinding day and night Cuz I can't stand the thought of me Falling flat, all regret and no reward Is this a war worth fighting for I'm waking up can't fall asleep Cuz I keep pondering If I chose the wrong road I need a sign Lord I do this for me but I still wanna make you proud I still wanna make you proud It's a fact that I been trapped by what you think Don't pity me I was broke before you knew me And I ain't talking bout money I mean like that Chevy 45 that just won't run I'm stuck in park and I'm in the dark On what I'll do when I graduate I've got these dreams But don't quite believe That I got what I need So I'm working I can't let you down I need you to be Proud of me